I started this post on 04/21/2017 and got myself lost in other things. I tend to do that a lot. Have you seen that pregnancy test commercial (there’s probably more than one out there) where the people look at it and are all smiles? I’m sure you have. I find that commercial mildly annoying. I think they should have at least one person say “Shit” in a whispered tone. Not mad, but maybe slightly hoping they weren’t. I know that both are realistic, but they want to include everyone in these commercials. Companies should be looking for realistic approaches to their products and not everyone in a situation is ecstatic about that situation.


Being a Parent is Irrelevant

I had to take parenting classes a few months ago because one of the boys had gotten himself into trouble last summer. He gets counseling services, Intensive In Home services, and probation. When he was small, he was taught what you do and don’t do. I can speak from experience that kids will definitely only learn and follow what they want. It seems more like he will do the opposite of what I teach him. Or if I tell him I’m against something he is all for it. What I am taking away from all these services is that what I want for him and of him is irrelevant. But, of course, I’m a lousy person if he is doing wrong.


I saw this on Daddy and Mummy quotes yesterday:18011001_1643138562381067_4168294107647343014_n


I have always agreed with this kind of statement. I believe schools and some teachers overstep this boundary all too often. I’ve always felt that if you have an issue with something a parent does, you talk to them away from the kids. I try never to argue in front of my kids with another adult because it shows immaturity and is just plain rude.

All too often my feelings/wishes and beliefs are shot down by the people that are supposed to be helping, and most of the time right in front of my children. It’s been bugging me and I don’t have any more of a point to make (also lost my train of thought with all the obligations for the day) which means I’ll leave it at this. Just another rant.



Been a Long Road

I’ve been working on my blogger posts since that one has ads and a way to maybe make something without buying anything yet. I haven’t made enough to pay for a website or domain. Although, that is definitely something I wish to do. I am not asking for clicks, though, as I don’t want to get into any trouble and lose it.

I am working with a task based virtual assistant company and that’s not doing much for me yet because I’m still learning how to do some and my children don’t like my attention anywhere else. I enjoy it, but here are plenty of others working with it as well. I am also working on MTurk here and there. As well as being signed up with a few transcribing sites. By the way, working with several transcribing sites is not the best idea. I’ve noticed that each has different rules on how they want it done. It makes it a little too confusing. I do know the one I want to work with most once I get used to their scary looking sign up process for jobs.

I have a couple of YouTube channels. There’s my regular one that’s connected to my account and my gaming channel. My gaming channel won’t have uploads very often because I don’t get a lot of time on the consoles. I do love the games and have some videos to edit, but other things take more precedence.

Our boys are still having episodes of complete defiance and the seeming need to cause drama at home. This is pouring into the youngest child’s behavior now and I am going to seek counseling for her. There’s been a lot of family drama in the past few years. I have several drafts started in this that I’ll need to look at and see if they’re worth publishing at this point.

There has been so much chaos in our family that I keep telling myself I’m going to try to be positive. If that works again, I’ll definitely let the world know. For now, it’s just hopes. That’s all I have any clear enough thoughts to update at the moment. I am going to be more  regular soon.





There was a murder in my neighborhood today. My my son’s friend’s mother was the victim. I feel horrible for the family and the fact that she more than likely suffered so badly in her final moments. She was stabbed multiple times. Another neighbor told us it was thirteen times. We moved away from city as much as possible in hopes that the chances of being around this were lessened. They locked down the local schools and only seemed to tell the middle school kids what was going on(to an extent) because the murdered still hasn’t been caught at this time.


I’m a firm believer in words not meaning much without something to show they are true. Like “I’m sorry” should mean that particular action won’t happen again. If it continues to happen, the words “I’m sorry” are sickening to hear.

Our boys stole my cigarettes(thankfully I’m trying to quit so that won’t be an option for much longer). This is the second time they’ve done this particular thieving, they’ve been taking lots of things at home lately that they are supposed to ask permission for in order to have. The last time they took my cigarettes was around a year ago.This time they broke into a locking freezer to get them. Now both say it was the other boy so in my mind it is both of them just trying to out the other one. My son can usually only keep up a lie with me for a short time and his son will just keep it up if it keeps him out of trouble. Unfortunately I don’t believe either of them this time and think it’s both. I had their teachers search them.

Now, his boy’s counselor wants to tell me everyone makes mistakes. How many times can it happen and still be a mistake? I’m going to make them work off stealing from me. Only problem is that sometimes it’s so much a hassle to get them to understand a task that I’m still doing more work. I feel that all of these counselors for these boys are really just enabling them. They keep letting them think, it’s ok, you just have something slightly wrong with your brain’s chemical balance. When do they start being told to try within themselves to change that? When they wind up in jail later in life, maybe. When no one else is responsible for them because of age they are thrown to the wolves thinking everyone will be so understanding. It’s tiring to feel like you’re battling the people that are supposed to be helping because every bit of “help” they give only makes the kids worse at home.

Does mourning ever get easier?

2 years and 31 days ago my mother passed away. Does the pain ever really get easier? I have some good days, but many days where I’m still so heartbroken. This year it is worse because 2 years and 11 days after her death, my father had a stroke. He is still in the hospital and I’m too far away to see him. I’m a coward in the fact that I can’t bring myself to call him. Dad was always strong, even when he was sick. Almost as soon as mom was gone he started getting sick more often, and now this.  This is not my first time dealing with loss either. I had physically lost  my eldest son(he’s not dead, thankfully, but I will go into this one another time) in 2002  I also lost another woman I considered a grandmother within a couple years from that. It never gets any easier in my opinion. These are real losses, aside from the every day kinds (breakups, material junk, jobs). It really sucks! Yes, I am whining…because I can.Image


It’s obvious that I am inconsistent. I just don’t have something to say every day. Most of what I do have to say is a complaint about how I believe something isn’t working the way it should. My daily life, in general, is rather boring by the standards of most. I go through the same worries as many people, I know many others deal with much worse. This means in no way that I haven’t had true problems. Each problem’s intensity is based on the person dealing with them.

The past two weeks I’ve been so very sick. To the point I felt I might die. I hate going to hospitals though. I did when I slid down our outdoor stairs to make sure I didn’t break anything and then became sick. I guess it was the flu. Wasn’t going back to find out. The kids wound up sick too so I’ve given them home-made antibiotics. I pretty much refuse to get the medical antibiotics since my mother contracted MRSA. It sucked to see her go through it and I’m going to avoid it if I can in my family.

My boyfriend no longer works for that wretched company and has a few tricks up his sleeve to hopefully have no need to go back to working for some undeserving company. The recession we had gave companies too much power over people. I don’t think companies should be able to have mandatory over-time, or telling non-managers to be available on the weekend if the facility is supposedly closed on weekends. Managers should be available to the place at all times, not employees who don’t make the bigger paycheck. Most of us work for our children or to have things we want if there aren’t children yet and I see no point in having the job if it makes sure you never see them.

I’m getting back into my myriad of home-based jobs. I miss working but there just isn’t much available in this little area. Thankfully it seems to be a good thing for a few mystery shop companies as I may be the only one in a close vicinity. Yay for me there!

I see I have a few new followers, that’s awesome! Come in and see my rants. I’ll check out your blogs of course. Anywho, have a great day all!!